Sunday, December 25, 2016

Au Revoir 2016!

Happy Holidays to everyone!! 

This year has been crazy to say the least. As I sit here in the post-Christmas Day quiet, I am reflecting and finally writing this post that I have been thinking of writing for a very long time.

My One Brave Thing Every Day project, take 2, has been lack luster. I haven't devoted the time necessary for me to make it nearly as fun and interesting for me as the first go round was, and I have realized that I ultimately missed the point. I was doing things all along that were brave, everyday. I just haven't looked at them as brave. Thinking of all of the changes I have made in the past year, I realized that I am doing way more that I even considered. So, in effect, I was successful in the ultimate goal, just not successful in following the journal and writing about it.  The experience overall was fun, I just have found that my time and attention have been pulled in other directions. I haven't devoted the time to writing. Something I again plan on changing. 

So, here I sit, writing about my "failed" experiment in blogging. I guess to say it failed is a bit harsh. I had fun, learned some things about myself, and grew. So I guess it did what it was intended to do.

As I continue to learn and grow, my next set of goals for the new year is oriented on the theme of simplification and quality over quantity. Stripping things down to the basics. Not allowing things that are negative, harmful or otherwise wasteful to remain a part of my life. 

So, welcome 2017. I am excited for the things I have planned for next year, and two of the biggest excitements are my travel plans. Super excited for Paris and then Sonoma in September. What better places for a wine lover to visit? Cheers to that! Travel. My love. I am afflicted with wanderlust and the only cure is to see the world. 

So, until next time, I hope you all had a lovely holiday season. Here's to a brighter new year.

Monday, July 4, 2016

Love, Daring, Paris and the Dentist

143 (6/27/2016) "The loving are the daring." -Bayard Taylor

Whom I love:

What I dared:

There really is no question of whom I love and I would do anything for the ones that I love. Today did not bring any opportunity for such daring.

I am glad for this and every day that is uncomplicated and boring. 

144 (6/28/2016) Dare to change your look today

Today I: did nothing really. I did not dare to change my look today.

I did dare to deactivate my Facebook account for a bit. I really am so glad that I did.

145 (6/29/2016) "Why don't you turn our old ermine coat into a bathrobe?" -Diana Vreeland

Today I: Continued with my Facebook hiatus. I may do this again in the future.

146 (6/30/2016) "Put a grain of boldness into everything you do." -Baltasar Gracian

Today's grain of boldness: Studying for the LSAT.

I made the decision to start working toward taking the LSAT. I figure: Why not?

147 (7/1/2016) "Put a grain of boldness into everything you do." -Baltasar Gracian

Today's grain of boldness: Turning down an invite.

I didn't want to crash some one's birthday party. I wasn't invited and that's not my style.

Staying true to myself.

148 (7/2/2016) Go outside your travel comfort zone.

My comfort zone: Driving anywhere within 6 hours travel time.

Willing to try: travel by train

Reluctant to try: Small aircraft

Terrifying!: remote foreign country where I don't speak the language and don't know their laws and customs.

149 (7/3/2016) "I live my life in widening circles that reach out across the world." -Rainer Maria Rilke

Today I ventured outside my travel comfort zone by planning a trip to: Paris

I have been planning this for over a year now. It's getting down to the time to start booking. I'm excited.

150 (7/4/2016) Dentophobia: the fear of dentists.

Rate your fear of procedures, 1 = not afraid to 10= most terrifying





Root canal:7



Something worse: anything that involves an oral surgeon. I had wisdom teeth removed and suffered with dry socket and the oral surgeon TORTURED ME. He caused me soooo much more pain by jamming medal implements into the socket without giving me anything to deaden the nerves first. It was excruciating. I'm actually tearing up while thinking about it. So awful.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

140 - 142

Day 140 (6/24/2016) "I like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past." -Thomas Jefferson

My dream of the future: to have a life I don't need a vacation from.

I want to travel. I want to wake up in the morning feeling excited for the day.

This is my dream of the future.

Day 141 (6/25/2016) "You're never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream." -C.S. Lewis

My new dream: Lawyer (maybe)

I've been thinking about law school again. It has been brought up by Wes several times and I am not ruling it out entirely. I go back and forth on this a lot.

Day 142 (6/26/2016) "I'll take heart and make a start - though I fear the prospect's shady - much I'd spend to gain my end - faint heart never won fair lady!" -W.S. Gilbert

Start I made today: attempting to draw up plans to revamp my wardrobe and my closet. Also, deactivating my Facebook account.

I have big plans for this, to get rid of a lot of my old things and simplify my life.

My plan is to restart and reboot my life. Getting rid of many things that do not bring joy or make me happy.

Thursday, June 23, 2016

127 - 139

Day 127 (6/11/16) "To act is to be committed, and to be committed is to be in danger." -James Baldwin

Today I made this commitment: to slow down and enjoy life.

I went to the pool with my boy and we had a great time. Love hanging with my little man.

I am trying very hard to make sure that I take the time and be present.

Day 128 (6/12/16) "If thou follow thy star, thou canst not fail of a glorious heaven." -Dante

My star: continued to try to take care of myself and reduce stress.

I sat outside and wrote a long overdue blog post... do you see how this is becoming a problem? I know I have time, I just have a hard time making time.

I have got to make what's important to me a priority.

Day 129 (6/13/16) "He turns not back who is bound to a star." -Leonardo da Vinci

Today I: Worked my ass off. Hard work pays off.

Day 130 (6/14/16) "Keep your fears to yourself but share your courage." -Robert Louis Stevenson

Today I shared my courage by: ???

Nope. I've got nothing for today.

Day 131 (6/15/16) "Keep your fears to yourself but share your courage." -Robert Louis Stevenson

Today I shared my courage by: by enjoying the finer things in life.

I popped the cork on a bottle of Moet.

Life is short. Drink champagne.
Day 132 (6/16/16) "You cannot find what you do not seek. You cannot grasp when you do not reach. Your dreams won't come up to your front door. You have got to take a leap, if you want to soar." -Cory Booker

Today I took this leap: baseball...

Another game. I'm like a soccer mom, except its baseball. I also do not own a minivan or SUV
Day 133 (6/17/16) "The artist never entirely knows. We guess. We may be wrong, but we take leap after leap in the dark." -Agnes de Mille

Today I took this leap: I stayed in. Had a drink. Went to bed early.

Day 134 (6/18/16) "Yes!"

Today I said "Yes!" to a friend: by cutting off 5 inches from my hair.

I wanted to take 4 off, she thought 6, we split the difference and I agreed with her offer of 5.

New cut and color. I needed the change.

Day 135 (6/19/16) "No!"

Today I said "No!" to a friend: well, didn't really talk to any of my friends today. I didn't have any offers to decline for today from my friends.

I spent father's day with my boys and my dad. We sat in 101 degree heat at 2 p.m. and watched my son play baseball.

Do you see how baseball has taken over my life?? Hahaha.

Day 136 (6/20/16) "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself." -Franklin Delano Roosevelt

Today I: didn't really face any fears and I wasn't really afraid of anything today.

I did have a lovely time with a friend catching up. We had dinner and she and I talked for hours. I really do love those conversations and love spending time with friends like this.

I really would love to spend the rest of my life having long conversations all night long and watching the sun rise.

Day 137 (6/21/16) "Fear makes the wolf bigger than it is." -German proverb

Today I shrunk this "wolf":

Day 138 (6/22/16) "The first step is the hardest." -English proverb

Goal: to look cute and be really good at my job

Step 1: get up in the morning and get ready for work

This goal is actually going very well, actually. I had my review at work and said that he really didn't have any criticism for me. He said he sat down the night before and tried to come up with a list and ended up with nothing. He had many compliments for me and it really helped me realize that I am not doing as bad a job as I think I am. I am doing a very good job and I am continuing to learn and grow in my career as a paralegal.

Day 139 (6/23/16) "The first step is the hardest." -English proverb

Goal: continuing to simplify my life

Step 1: getting rid of most of my closet

To be fair, 90% of what is in my closet I NEVER wear. It needs to go. I also need to continue to purge my vanity.

Most days I just want to throw everything away and start over.

Sunday, June 12, 2016

118 - 126

Day 118 (6/2/2016) "Dare to change the world today."

Today I: Continuing to support the ones I love

Even though I am tired, or not feeling well, or whatever is making me feel bad, I still make time to support those I love, and I feel like that definately has a positive impact in the world.

Some days, people just need to know that someone, anyone, cares.

Day 119 (6/3/2016) "Die when I may, I want it said of me by those who know me best, that I have always plucked a thistle and planted a flower where I thought a flower would grow." -Abraham Lincoln

Today I: Tried to find the silver lining.

My car died- DIED- at a gas station tonight at like 9 p.m. Wes was with me, and we were in town but all the way across town. So this required us to tow our car back to the service shop, where it had already spent 2 days prior this week.

We walked all the way across town at 10:30 p.m.

Silver lining: at least I could see the stars, it wasn't raining, and it was actually a really beautiful night.

And with that, I am officially in uncharted territory. Thus ends my re-do of the previous 119 days... 

Day 120 (6/4/2016) "I have too many high-sounding words and too few actions that correspond with them." -Abigail Adams

My words today: Encouraging, congratulatory and observant.

I attended my friend's wedding today, but first I was tasked with styling her hair.

My actions today: I was brave.... very brave... by styling my friend's hair for her wedding.

It is so much pressure to style a bride's hair. Just think about it. Think about the pictures. Think of how women get about their wedding day.

Disclaimer: my friend is NOT your typical bride and is very easy going. She could NEVER be classified as a bridezilla, not in a million years.

The result: she looked amazing. So beautiful. I hope she felt as beautiful as she looked. My whole goal was not only to make her look beautiful, but feel beautiful. Hope that was met.

Day 121 (6/5/2016) "Speak little. Do much." -Benjamin Franklin

My words: very few. Fire bad, tree pretty.

Buffy fans will get that one, and it refers to my level of functioning today. Exhausted.

My actions: I got up, and I worked a little outside. Got my son to his ball game. Found four 4-leaf clovers while I was there. Came home and went to bed. This whole weekend was waiting for my car to be finished Monday morning.

Day 122 (6/6/2016) "Go west, young man." -Horace Greeley

My next adventure will be: my new car.

So, after picking my old car up early this morning, I had to have it taken back in to the shop for them to fix a strut that broke off at the base while I was on my lunch break. Good thing I have the best boss ever and he was super cool with my long(er) lunch. Wes had to come and rescue me, something he does well and often. He then bought me a new car. I was still too exhausted to care or enjoy my new car that evening when I came home from work.

Day 123 (6/7/2016) "The frontiers are not east or west, north or south, but wherever a man fronts a fact." -Henry David Thoreau

Fact I dared to confront today: #1: not everyone is going to treat you the way you should be treated.

and that is just fine. I'd rather not invest my time in getting to know someone, or make a new friend if they are going to be flaky or not keep their word.

Being stood up by anyone is really very shitty, and one would think that people would be courteous enough to let you know if they can't make it when you had plans.

Again, not everyone is going to treat you the way you should be treated.

Fact # 2: when someone shows you who they are, BELIEVE THEM.

Day 124 (6/8/2016) "None but the brave deserves the fair." -John Dryden

Today I was brave: I wore a red lip to work.

Red lipstick is bold and I dared wear it to work. The end.

Day 125 (6/9/2016) "None but the brave deserves the fair." -John Dryden

Today I was brave: another late night at my boy's baseball game.

Again, showing up is important.

Day 126 (6/10/16) "People wish to learn to swim and at the same time to keep one foot on the ground." -Marcel Proust

Today I took my foot off the ground: going to the pool post-brunch, with my little man, and not giving a damn about how I looked in my bikini.

I have been struggling with how my body looks as of late, the typical summertime insecurity I would suppose that plagues most women I know. However, today I decided to give ZERO FUCKS.

Bikini - Check!

Fun- Check!!

No fucks given - CHECK!!!!

How was this achieved? Solely by distraction. I kept my focus outward and not let myself focus on any negative thought that may have popped into my head.

Life is too damn short to entertain such bullshit anyway, am I right?

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

Growing pains?

Day 115 (5/30/16) "Courage is being scared to death... and saddling up anyway." -John Wayne

Today I ventured outside my athletic comfort zone by: ...

Nope. Didn't happen. I did nothing today and enjoyed having the day off.

It's Memorial Day.

Day 116 (5/31/16) "There are no gains without pains." -Benjamin Franklin

Today's gains: making progress on back paperwork

Today's pains: I still feel like I have no idea what I'm doing when it comes to preparing discovery responses in a case. Preparing the answers to interrogatories and requests for production of documents is a pain in the ass right now... mostly because I feel like I don't know what I'm doing and partly because I'm not comfortable with the process yet.

Day 117 (6/1/16)"There are no gains without pains." -Benjamin Franklin

Today's gains: making more progress on back paperwork

Today's pains: day two of my discovery adventures... it certainly is a pain.
Client cooperation would be helpful too.

Sunday, May 29, 2016

Love and Fear

Day 112 (5/27/16) "Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness." -Bertrand Russell

Today I was incautious: wearing heels to work.

I love wearing heels. I used to wear them all the time. Somewhere along the way I got a job that strongly discouraged my wearing of heels. I became complacent and wore flats. I have so many pairs of heels that I don't wear and I realized that I can wear my heels to work now. 

So that's what I did. 

Red heels for a lovely Friday, headed into the holiday weekend. 

Day 113 (5/28/16) "Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." -Lao Tzu

My love today: my boy. He inspires me to be creative. Love him.

How? He has the craziest ideas and he absolutely does not care about being judged. He is so free and brave with his creativity.

I wish I could be more like that, and I hope he never loses being brave about his creativity. 

Day 114 (5/29/16) Go outside your athletic comfort zone.

Well, sand volleyball... sort of.

Beautiful day at the beach.

Sand volleyball is not really all that far out of my athletic comfort zone, but that is what I have chose today. It has been so long since I have played. Almost a year. 

Today, I returned.

I had a great time and it was a beautiful day.

 Me, Brandy and Deryck.

 They are just some of the amazing people I have met through sand volleyball.